Tarot Card Of The Week-The Sun

The Sun
The Sun

This week’s card is The Sun. What a good card! I’m not feeling it today but the week is just getting started so hopefully that will change.













Release and freedom following a time of trouble and worry.

Dawn following the darkest night.

Feeling more free than you have a while.

Things are going really well.

Path leading to enlightenment.



Card of The Week-The Fool

The Green Man or Fool Card
The Green Man or Fool Card

I am pretty happy to see this card! It means new good stuff is coming.











Ruled by Uranus and the element of air.


Entering a new phase of life.

A new cycle, rebirth, or renewal.

Feel the fear and do it anyways.

Take a risk.

He who dares wins.

Woot! I am open and excited about the future and my new solar year.:)





Weekly Tarot-Death

Death Card

The card for this week is the Death card. When I first drew this card I was kind of confused, but then a lightbulb went off. I have been feeling a bit lonely. It can be hard when your children grow up and move on with their lives. My youngest will be 17 in August and she just doesn’t need me that much. Each step she takes towards adulthood leaves me feeling a bit more empty. I think the Death card is telling me once again that it is time to let go. I know that it is better to listen than to struggle when this card appears. More and more I am faced with knowing that I have to figure out what I want to do with the second portion of my life. Soon my nest will truly be empty and I don’t want to fall apart when that happens.

I can think of 100 things I want to do with all my new-found time, that isn’t the issue. The problem is loneliness and how not to be driven crazy by the quiet. Being the mother of four kids means my home has rarely been quiet over the last 23 years. I have always felt a bit like an outsider so making friends can be hard. For the last few years, I have been working on cultivating authentic relationships with people. This can be pretty difficult because what I have learned is many people are not all that interested in authenticity. That being said, I have to keep trying.


Wands 2

I finished another wand today! This one was created for my husband. It was also created with apple wood. It has a lovely quartz at the tip and is wrapped in copper. The handle is wrapped in bamboo cord. Bamboo is masculine and carries both luck and protection energy. It can be used to break hexes as well.


Wand 2

This one was fun to make! The only bad thing that happened is I burned my finger on some hot glue.


Witchy Wand

I have been working with wands lately. I’ve been super drawn to working with wood and so I decided to just go with it. Apple wood has been the most appealing. Here is a little magickal info on apple wood.

Apple Wood is known for feminine energy. It is ruled by the planet Venus and the sign of Cancer. Although wood is earth energy it has some watery feel to it. It is associated with both Diana and Morrighan, this works well for me since I work with both of these deities. Samhain and rebirth are also associated with the apple. These wands work great for healing, fertility, love, the fairy realm, visions, piercing the veil, and the otherworld.

Ogham: Quert

Runes: Ing, Peorth, Cweorth

I had fun carving into the staff of the wand but it really does not show up well in photos. I carved three things that have magickal significance to me into it. This part was a lot harder than I thought it would be. After finding the right tool it became much easier.

I added a rose quartz to my wand. Rose quartz has been my favorite stone for as long as I can remember. It just seemed like the perfect fit. I went to the rock store and found a few that I liked. Rose quartz also has an association with feminine energy. It works really well with the apple energy.

Rose quartz can be used for:

Balancing yin and yang

Restoring harmony



Positive outlook




Release of stress

Union with the divine


Energy: Receptive

Element: Earth and Water

Planet: Venus

Deities: Freyr & Aphrodite

I had to find a way to attach my stone to the end of my wand. I used copper wire. This part was complicated. When I work magickally I like to work in threes so copper wire was the third element in my magickal recipe.

Copper is associated with:

Chakra: Crown, heart, and solar-plexus

Element: Water

Planet and Goddess: Venus








Transferring energy

So as you can see I have constructed a wand with feminine elements. I have used three similar items to build intent and energy.

Apple wand

Apple Wand 2

I also have a stang in process. It is like a staff but it has two points at the top. This is going to take some time to finish.




I can’t wait to show you how the stang works out! I really love making my own tools, it is very satisfying. Do any of you make your own tools? I would be interested to see photos or hear about it.






Tarot Card of The Week

This week’s card could not be more on target. I pulled the Eight of Discs which is the card of Skill. Keywords for this card:



Financial Security


Master expertise



Hard Work


Raising the Bar



Personal Fulfillment

I have been in the thick of it lately. Ambition overload! Being a Gemini I like to juggle a bunch of balls all at once. So this means I am working on a lot right now. But I love it! I love that feeling when all the gears are turning and all of the synapses are firing. This is a good card for right now, I couldn’t be happier.



8 of Discs
8 of Discs






In My Bones-2

When I last visited this topic I had just walked away from Christianity. Atheism did not stick. I tried but I couldn’t shake the feeling in my bones that there was more out there. This is also when I first started to use the internet. It was a wonderful way to explore the world. From the church’s point of view, everything was a sin. My childhood was cluttered with all of the things that were forbidden and dire warnings about falling into sin. One topic I had always wanted to explore was astrology. Astrology had been a big bad sin. It was an easy way for the devil to sneak in. With enthusiasm and new-found freedom I dove into the study of the stars. Often in the links section of astrology sites, I would find links to Pagan sites. Pagan sites intrigued me and I could not help myself, curiosity won!

The more I explored Paganism the more it seemed like a natural fit for me. I had to be very careful about this choice. First, what if I was wrong? I could be damned for this, but then wasn’t I damned anyways? The thing about being born into a religious family is that you never have a choice about your beliefs. I finally had a choice and I did not want to blow it. I studied all kinds of Pagans. I narrowed it down to Shamanism, Druidry, and Wicca. I took my time to decide, I took a year. I’m a voracious reader and I gobbled up whatever info I could. In the end, I settled on Wicca. Now that I consider myself a witch and not really a Wiccan, I realize all three of my studied paths are part of my practice.

With typical Gemini flair, I decided to self-dedicate on Samhain. I am not exaggerating when I say that my life has never been the same. Becoming a witch was like being released from a cage and being able to breathe deep for the first time. It felt like home. I felt in the center of where I belonged for the first time in my life. My first ritual was kind of scary. Would lightning come from the sky and strike me dead? Nope, no lightning. Whew! I went to bed that night, not grounded, and dreamt of flying.

The first deity I worked with was Diana the Huntress. It felt good to see myself reflected in my choice of deity. She was like me and I was like her. It felt like she claimed me. She helped me find myself and my voice. I experienced no judgement coming from her. No striving was required. Soon after I discovered Pan. He was a real wonder to me. A god who wasn’t stern and waving damnation in my face! He came to me as gentle presence. For that, I am forever grateful. I needed that so much. Acceptance from a male deity was key to my healing.

I started to read every book I could get my hands on. Magick and intuition came naturally for me. I started to slowly acquire Wiccan tools. I kept a book of shadows and followed the phases of the moon. I was green at all this but I had intense passion. It was a season of enthusiasm and freedom.

Eventually, I found Pagan community. Every group I encountered was ready to tell me what I was doing wrong. They knew the “right” way. Over time, I became very involved in the community. I spent 2 years in a program to become ordained and I took my service to the community very seriously. I worked within my community for over a decade. The more of myself I gave away the less my practice felt fulfilling. During this time, I learned about the craft and people. I’m sorry to say that in the end, I was more damaged by the community than I was helped by it. I burned out. This isn’t a new story, clergy burnout among Pagans is very high. My community was pretty demanding and they liked to be cared for, but that river did not flow both ways. I hit a point where I felt like an empty shell, I had nothing left to give and nothing left to say.

Eventually, I took a big step back. Everything changes and I knew in my bones that I needed change. I took a year to just be. I did not even plant a garden. Rest, deep rest, and healing were the only things I was seeking. I went to yoga and I meditated. I took the time to breathe and I worked on my private practice. When it came time to start to move forward again I knew what i wanted. I wanted my witchcraft and I wanted to be mostly solitary. I needed to be sure I did not make the same mistakes again.

I have not lost my desire to have community, but I think my idea of what community is has transformed. What I seek is a community where everyone brings something to the table. Backstabbers and gossips need not apply. My community may be smaller but I think it is better now. Right now my focus is to get back to my roots. I’m stripping away whatever isn’t needed and unearthing that old passion. It feels amazing to engage with that old magick again. It is going to be a magickal summer and I am ready for it!

Last night was the new moon. I sat alone and wove some new moon mojo. I lit my altar, sang and meditated, and let my wishes go out to the universe. Deep in my heart I smiled.



Artemis Of The Hunt
Kellianna copyright 2012

Artemis of the silver bow
And arrows formed of silver light
Eternal Maiden of the moon
Beloved leader of the hunt

May I run with you now
Through the green forest glade
Grant me the honor to join in the chase
And when the curve of my bow
Is the crescent moon
Artemis guide my arrow true

Lady Of The Wild Things
And forest nymphs running free
Her bird is the majestic crane
The silver fir her sacred tree

Goddess Of The Moon and Hunt
Running towards the morning light
She runs with lion, wolf and bear
Running free with unbound hair

Goddess Of The Raging Seas
Stirs the waves with a silver leash
And with a cry and mighty roar
She hurls them fast upon the shores

Moon Maiden rides the night sky
In a chariot drawn by four white stags
She sets down in a hidden place
And calls her maidens to the chase