Search

The Temple Within

Musings of a polytheistic witch

Month

October 2016

Preparing For Samhain

Today I sat down with my journal and a very sharp pencil to try to make some sense of Samhain. Usually what happens is I have no idea what I want to do and then it all comes together in the moment. As I put a pencil to paper today everything just came pouring out of me. I have been spending a lot of time communing with the ancestors, thanks to Anu, and so I have been revisiting the past. As I have reached for the past I feel the past reaching forward towards me. As the veil is thinning and thinning I feel like I can almost reach out and touch them. Memories surface of napping with grandpa in an olive-green chair with a green leafy pattern on it. Every other piece of furniture had plastic on it, it was like grandpa and his chair were real and the rest was cold and fake. Great grandpa did not have a comfy chair. His chair was wooden and hard and his lap felt bony and breakable. I would sit with him and sing songs in exchange for candy. Both grandpa and great grandpa had deep pockets filled with candy. To this day when I taste a butterscotch candy my mind travels back to them. They were not in my life for a very long time. Great grandpa passed when I was 11 and he was 98. Soon after my grandpa moved to Florida. These two men were the only positive males in my childhood. It makes sense that as the veil thins I would sense them here. I’m sure they were complicated men but in my child’s memory of them, they are simple, good, and accepting.

My word for next year (Samhain is my new year) is restoration. I feel that I have much to restore within. This word was the first seed on my path to understanding what my Samhain work would be. I also intend to return to working with the Queen archetype. I worked with her a few years ago and kind of fell away from it, or so I thought. I realized today that I have read so many books about so many queens and even if I wasn’t understanding why I was still working with the queen. This morning I revisited that archetype and looked at her light and dark aspects.

Now I only have to decide what the formal working will be. I know I need to clean house and get rid of some things in order to make room for fresh things to come in. I know it will come to me when the time is right.

D

The Full Moon

I am thankful today that the full moon is on the way out. I feel like I got my butt handed to me by this moon. Right now I am trying to be grateful for fresh insight and clarity. I have a feeling this Samhain is going to be a doozy. Big changes are afoot and I can feel the energy shifting all around me. My month of devotion to Anu has been going well but not as I expected. She has inspired me to connect with my ancestors and figure out who I am. When you’re a wife and mother it can be so easy to lose yourself in your roles. This week my focus is on starting to identify what I want to let go and bring in for Samhain. My lesson from the full moon is being awake can be hard to take, but I’d rather be awake than asleep.

D

Blog at WordPress.com.

Up ↑