50 is coming!

Next month I’m turning 50! It seems unreal and impossible. I have been preparing for this big birthday for the last year. I have been casting off the things which I do not want to carry into the next half of my life and cultivating tools that will help me when the calendar turns. I feel the queen/mother energy flowing through me strongly and I can see the crone waiting in the wings. When I start my new solar year I want to hit the ground running! The biggest shift is moving from mothering into creating. Not creating new life but projects. I have always created groups and projects but I’ve always had to look after others while doing this instead of being able to throw myself into things with abandon and to some degree selfishness. I’ve had an empty nest for a couple of years now and I have been slowly shifting into this new phase of life. Since Samhain, I have been focusing on figuring out what I want the second half of my life to look like. That is the easy part, the harder part has been being willing to take time for indulging my dreams and wants versus always thinking about the family first. I had my first child at age 22 and I have to figure out who I am all over again!

On the upcoming full moon, my focus will be courage. When you have kids at home you can always have an excuse for not doing things. When those babies move on it removes so much from your life and opens up so much time. Now the only thing stopping me is often my lack of courage to step out of the shadows and like the Fool card step out into a new adventure.

Right now I am more excited than nervous. I feel supported by Morrighan, Dagda, and Brigid and maybe pushed a little bit, but it is a good push. What will you be working on for the full moon?

D

 

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