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Summer Solstice Blues

Fairy Tree

My birthday often falls on the Summer Solstice and this year was one of those years. My friends and family gave me a lovely day and I am so grateful for all of the love.

I have been feeling pretty depressed due to what is happening politically here in the United States. I am an activist and so my days are spent trying to make the world a better place. I work to help good people get elected, I call my elected officials, and I volunteer for organizations that further causes that I believe in. My heart has been heavy because my daily work makes it hard to not be tuned into what is happening all around me. For the first time in my lifetime, I am scared for my country and worried that we will not bounce back this time. There is a heaviness all around me and this has made it hard to raise the energy needed to celebrate The Summer Solstice.

For days I was trying to figure out what to do and tying myself in knots. Then I heard the voice of the Goddess tell me to rest. She reminded me that harvest is coming and there will be lots of time to work and celebrate. On the Solstice, I took a social media break and that helped a lot. I did my best to only look at birthday and solstice wishes and let the rest go. It was good and needed. I spent a long day with friends and family. We ate good food and laughed a lot, we had a few drinks and I slept well. My simple act for Summer Solstice was to leave some cheese under this wonderful tree we found out hiking yesterday. I saw it and it looked like a fairy tree. I crept up and left a small food gift and tiptoed away. It was an offering and a thank you for helping me to keep going during the dark days. My lips were silent (unusual for a Gemini) but my heart was quietly reaching out for connection.

If you are a witch, empath, or priestess please take care of yourself. I am a Gemini who likes to live in her head and my heart has been bursting at the seams with sadness and rage. I have had to work hard to allow myself to feel but not become stuck in all of the sadness. Take time to recharge your spiritual batteries, rest, and turn off your social media for a short time if you need to. There is no shame in feeling scared, angry, sad, or anxious. Lastly, remember you are not alone. I’m here, reach out if you need to.

D

 

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Winter Warrior

Winter is the time of year when my inner warrior is the most visible. Strength is required to get through the long Wisconsin winters but that isn’t what I’m talking about. I have lived here my entire life and so winter is not a big deal.

Covered In Snow

I’m talking about battling the beast called depression. So far I’m doing ok, keeping my head above water and engaging in the fight, ask me again in February and you might get another response. My inner warrior goddess keeps pushing me forward and I’m trying to keep up. On the other hand, I have Aphrodite telling me to engage in self-care and Bast is trying to entice me into dancing. I think there is a part of me that doesn’t want to slow down to take care of myself because I’m afraid I might lose my momentum and become stuck. This is the time of year when I focus on balance the most, it is also the hardest time for me to find balance. My emotions are either all over the map or they are turned off completely. Heart chakra magick is often needed to keep me from shutting down.

I know this isn’t the most uplifting post, that isn’t my intent, my intent is to be as real as possible. Being a witch isn’t all fairy dust and magick wands, sometimes it is a gritty battle to keep standing. Right now my heart chakra might be a bit overstimulated, I feel deep wells of water threatening to overflow.

Today I plan to take care of some household tasks and then I think I will work some magick to help me feel less out of sorts. A hot bath to soothe my nerves, a fire in the hearth to warm me, and some hot chocolate to sweeten the day. Later I have an opportunity to be social so that will help too. Tomorrow I’m going to my dance fitness class again and so Bast will be happy.

If you are fighting SAD or just regular depression know that I am right there with you. I’m happy to share tips for getting through this rough season.

D

Skadi Season

Now that most of the holiday season has passed I’m turning my attention to Skadi. I started working with her a few winters ago and have worked with her every winter since. Depending on if you are looking at the Old Norse or Old English her name means either “harm” or “shadow.” This is perfect for me because I work with many shadow or so-called dark goddesses. I see her as a perfect winter deity. She helps me get out of the house and into the snow when all I want to do is stay inside and isolate myself. I suffer from depression and anxiety and it gets much worse in the winter. I use a light box to help with some of that, working with Skadi helps the other part. She is a giantess and is often seen as a patroness of winter survival and activities. I tend to meditate on her when I am out in nature or even when I’m just walking the dog around the neighborhood.

This year I want to focus on her in an even deeper way. I plan to leave more offerings and deepen my magickal work with her.  Her energy comes to me in a couple of ways. She feels like she is helping me with being hardy and able to keep it together during the darkest months, but she also seems to have an energy of fun around her. She shows up when I’m throwing snowballs at the dog or running in the snow when we are playing. Maybe that play is all a part of the survival aspect. For the first time this year, I have an image of her on my altar so that helps me maintain my focus. I also do other things like wearing special makeup or jewelry in honor of her.

Working with a figure like Skadi can be a challenge because there isn’t much info about her out there. In some ways, this can be a really good thing because it forces you to find your own way. Do any of you work with Skadi? I would love to hear how you incorporate her into your witchy goodness. Do you have other deities you work with exclusively n the winter?

D

Morrigan Doll

I made a Morrigan doll per her request and I kind of love it! It was a process considering Mercury is retro and so I struggled mightily with the simple task of sewing. Now I plan to move onto the task of making a Morrigan wand. I found a lovely stick I want to use it for that purpose. I feel like I have been infused with energy and inspiration. Along with that, I feel like my connection to the divine is wide open. This often happens leading up to Beltane so I’m not super surprised, but I am delighted. I’m trying to take advantage of the energy boost while I have it. Breakthroughs are wonderful and I’m very grateful right now.

D

A Month of Devotion

September has been a rough month for me. Nothing big and bad happening, I’ve just been having some health issues. I’m feeling much better now and I’m ready to start preparing for Samhain. Samhain is my favorite time of year and I tend to do some big magick and spiritual work during this time. I’m feeling inspired to complete a month of devotion. My plan is to work with Anu every day for the month of October. I have been working with Anu over the last year but I’m feeling the need to really focus right now. I’m also going to focus on meditation because I have become kind of lazy in that area.

Do you have any plans for the month of October? Do you celebrate Samhain and if so how do you plan for it?

D

Sharing Inspiration

I have a couple of things to share today. I made another wand. This wand is made from apple wood like the others. I added shells with the intention of creating a water wand. It has this lovely quality, when I hold it I can feel the connection to my heart chakra. I imagine you could use it for work having to do with love, the heart, creativity, compassion or healing.

Water wand
Water wand

The shells wrap around and crawl up the wand.

Water wand
Water wand
I used 4 different colored shells
I used 4 different colored shells
Water wand
Water wand
Water wand
Water wand

I left the handle natural and long enough to be shortened to fit the user.

The other thing I want to share is a Pinterest board. I created a page for Morrighan. I love to connect with like-minded witches. If you want to follow me just follow the link.

https://www.pinterest.com/wismom4/morrighan/

D

Witchy Wand

I have been working with wands lately. I’ve been super drawn to working with wood and so I decided to just go with it. Apple wood has been the most appealing. Here is a little magickal info on apple wood.

Apple Wood is known for feminine energy. It is ruled by the planet Venus and the sign of Cancer. Although wood is earth energy it has some watery feel to it. It is associated with both Diana and Morrighan, this works well for me since I work with both of these deities. Samhain and rebirth are also associated with the apple. These wands work great for healing, fertility, love, the fairy realm, visions, piercing the veil, and the otherworld.

Ogham: Quert

Runes: Ing, Peorth, Cweorth

I had fun carving into the staff of the wand but it really does not show up well in photos. I carved three things that have magickal significance to me into it. This part was a lot harder than I thought it would be. After finding the right tool it became much easier.

I added a rose quartz to my wand. Rose quartz has been my favorite stone for as long as I can remember. It just seemed like the perfect fit. I went to the rock store and found a few that I liked. Rose quartz also has an association with feminine energy. It works really well with the apple energy.

Rose quartz can be used for:

Balancing yin and yang

Restoring harmony

Love

Self-love

Positive outlook

Self-esteem

Joy

Oneness

Release of stress

Union with the divine

Healing

Energy: Receptive

Element: Earth and Water

Planet: Venus

Deities: Freyr & Aphrodite

I had to find a way to attach my stone to the end of my wand. I used copper wire. This part was complicated. When I work magickally I like to work in threes so copper wire was the third element in my magickal recipe.

Copper is associated with:

Chakra: Crown, heart, and solar-plexus

Element: Water

Planet and Goddess: Venus

Balance

Healing

Fertility

Love

Property

Harmony

Peace

Transferring energy

So as you can see I have constructed a wand with feminine elements. I have used three similar items to build intent and energy.

Apple wand

Apple Wand 2

I also have a stang in process. It is like a staff but it has two points at the top. This is going to take some time to finish.

http://www.sarahannelawless.com/2011/02/27/how-to-use-a-stang

http://www.walkingthehedge.net/hedge/just-a-few-notes-on-the-stang

http://www.hearthandhedge.blogspot.com/2011/07/stang.html

I can’t wait to show you how the stang works out! I really love making my own tools, it is very satisfying. Do any of you make your own tools? I would be interested to see photos or hear about it.

D

 

 

 

 

Magick Manifest

Hello Witches! I hope this fine May evening finds you doing well. We finally saw some sun today! Here is a photo of some lovely flowers I found.

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I had one goal for Beltane, I had to find a way to set myself free. I was feeling heavy, weighed down by sadness and pressure. I had shrunk myself and ceased to be authentic. I was acting from fear. Afraid of being hurt if I let my true self shine through.

“Freedom
Freedom
I can’t move
Freedom, cut me loose
Singin’, freedom
Freedom
Where are you?
‘Cause I need freedom too” Beyonce

This world can be tough on those of us who don’t fit in. The magical ones, the sensitive ones, those who color outside the lines. The grind of trying to fit in when you don’t can really wear on a person. Ultimately I took some big action and quit my job. It was proving to be pretty toxic to me and I had been staying out of a false sense of duty. I knew I was going to have quit soon but I had not pulled the trigger on it yet. 

“I break chains all by myself
Won’t let my freedom rot in hell
Hey! I’ma keep running
‘Cause a winner don’t quit on themselves” Beyonce

I think all of these retrogrades played a part in keeping me stuck. My mind has been muddy and I just couldn’t achieve any forward motion. Then yesterday something shifted. The energy felt different and so I struck while the iron was hot. Just that one action caused a big change. I feel like I can breathe again. I spent the day outside with my daughter soaking up the natural world, and best of all the sunshine. There is a lot of work left to do, but I feel like I have made a great start and I can already feel a huge energy shift.

Part of the magick has been meditation. Talking with Morrigan never hurts. The biggest thing I did was immerse myself in the energy of freedom. I have danced and listened to music about freedom. I have read poetry and historical quotes about freedom. I have bit my lip and acted from my heart. A dash of this and a dash of that plus some serious intent have made manifest my Beltane wish.

What was your Beltane wish? Have you worked any juicy magick lately?

D

Wishing For Spring

I am wishing for spring. This winter has felt so long. Today I have the day off. I spent a bit of time at the park trying to soak up some of the natural world.

Gray days at the park.
Gray days at the park.

I have stayed very healthy all winter and then a little over a week ago I got slammed. It started as a little cold and escalated to a weird flu thing. I’m at the end of it now but I’m struggling to shake it off. This has made it hard for me to focus on Ostara the way I would normally want to. I’m going to try to make time for meditation tomorrow. I know that I need it. I’m feeling terribly off balance right now.

The good news is the signs of spring are all around me. The robins are out and tiny green things are pushing through the soil. Maverick is delighting in all of the mud and puddles around. His usually white paws are splashed with brown. He was my good buddy on my walk around the park today.

Right now I am grateful that spring is around the corner. As I write this a song comes to mind…

“Lachen, lachen, lachen, lachen
Kommt die Sonne uber das Feld.
Uber das Feld, kommt die Sonne
Ha ha ha, ha ha ha
Uber das Feld.

Laughing, laughing, laughing, laughing
Comes Aurora over the hill.
Over the hill, comes Aurora,
Ha ha ha, ha ha ha
Over the Hill.”

Whenever I hear this song it calls to mind the young goddess frolicking with her bunny companion. When she arrives I will be ready to share a giggle and hopefully, she will color the world something other than gray.

D

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