Whew…this Mercury Retrograde has been brutal. That being said the new moon always brings a fresh opportunity to get things done, so here I go…
This month I’m thinking about things in a broader sense. Instead of working on goals I am working on fire and power. By power I mean the power that comes from within. I think I am just now starting to feel the real cost of the past year. Now that the physical pain is starting to pass away I am coming to terms with the emotional pain.
Both Thor and Freya have showed up over the last couple of days. I have worked with them before but I do not work with them all the time. I’m going work with them for this lunation and see where it goes.
How are you doing and will you be doing anything special for this lunation?
The Virgo new moon is finally here and she couldn’t arrive soon enough. I have been feeling stuck in stagnant energy and then yesterday, POW, even before the new moon hit I felt something break loose inside me. I’m sure that I do not need to tell you that this year is different than any other we have experienced. It has been a loaded year for me and I’m am seriously looking forward to going within during October. I have been working on healing all year and I’ve made some huge strides. As the new moon was approaching I became aware of it’s healing potential but I was feeling pretty ambivalent about it. Yesterday I was minding my own business questioning in my head what I was going to do for the new moon and then suddenly Innana and Lillith came to call. I have worked with both of these Goddesses in the past so it wasn’t a complete shocker. They made it pretty clear what they thought I should be working on and suddenly it all made sense. I love it when the gods speak so clearly to you and it all comes together. The healing work I need to focus on is deep childhood stuff. I have been doing this work already but Innnana and Lillith showed me a different angle that I had not considered. This work could have big ramifications in other parts of my life that I have been struggling with. Along with this I now have some clarity regarding some things I want to work on during the Samhain season.
I hope you all have a wonderful new moon and Mabon!
It’s Summer Solstice and tomorrow is my 50th birthday so it is going to be a big weekend! I am feeling the fire of big sun energy! The new moon has refreshed my spirit and I’m ready to work some magick. This particular turn of the wheel has always found me surrounded by family and community. This year will most definitely be quieter but it will still be good. I view my 50th birthday as a gateway to a new phase of my life. I would like to say that I’m feeling the queen/creatrix archetype but I’m feeling pretty centered within warrior energy. I woke up this morning feeling a surge of power like someone had plugged me in and recharged me overnight. Wherever you are today I hope you have an opportunity to fill up on this warm fire energy. Here in Wisconsin, it is rainy but that won’t stop me from working with the sun and filling up on all of the goodness.
The last few days have been hard. I am seeing how so many things are draining my energy. Some are people but some are activities and things like the news. During this waning moon period, I’d like to banish some of these energy vampires. There are times when we cannot totally remove something that drains us and then we have to think about how to shield ourselves and try to minimize the effects of whatever it is. We will soon be in Gemini season (3 days) and I want to be ready to hit the ground running and soak up all of that juicy Gemini energy! My magickal plan for the new moon is to indulge in the things that feed and nurture me. The above photo was taken at one of my favorite spots. I love the water and sitting on the shore listening to the waves lap the shore really feeds me. I intend to call in more time in nature, more time breathing deep and soaking up what the natural world has to offer. Along with that more smiling and more connecting with those who energize my spirit.
How are you using this waning moon time? What would you like to call in at the new moon?
Last week my mind was brimming with ideas but I didn’t want to put them into action until the new moon. Now that we are past that everything is starting to move forward and take off! I have added all my social media info into the about page so please connect with me on Instagram and Twitter. I’m excited to announce I have also started a closed FB group with the same name as this blog. Please feel free to ask to be a member over there. I’m also taking the leap into tarot readings and online coaching. If you are interested in any of that you can find info on the services page. Whew!
Have I mentioned it is the first day of October?! Or as I like to call it the first day of Halloween! It’s my favorite month of the year and so I’m planning to celebrate a little today. I intend to put up my Day of the Dead/ancestor altar today and will leave it up through the first week of November. I will also spruce up my main working altar space in honor of the Crone. Something about this time of year really gets my blood pumping. Here in Wisconsin, it is gloomy and raining. I think we are supposed to get some thunderstorms which only adds to the mood.
I take Samhain and The Day of the Dead very seriously. My practice is pretty Celtic in nature and that fits well with my ancestry on my mother’s side. On my father’s side my ancestors are from Mexico, so celebrating The Day of the Dead helps me to connect with them. Halloween is something that brings me joy and I feel that in and of itself is sacred. Each of these things is a part of what I consider to be the most sacred month of my year. Each has its own meaning and each adds something different to my practice. Yes, I consider Halloween part of my practice! Winter is hard for me due to Seasonal Affective Disorder and so I try to store up as much joy as I can before that hits hard. Halloween makes me so happy.
I have been feeling the wheel turning me inward and I have already started to prepare myself for Samhain. Have you been feeling the pull to turn inward?
I have been working with water for a season. I would love to be able to report back that all of my work has been successful. The truth is this is very hard work for me. Too much water makes me feel so heavy and (remember I am a Gemini) not enough makes me feel empty.
Strangely enough, I feel best when I’m working with water solo. I can commune with it in the tub, or at my local park. Alone with water, it is healing for me, but when I start to involve others it gets kind of out of control. Being an empath I’m always trying to figure out which energy is mine and what belongs to others. People with lots of water in their charts can be hard for me to be around for long periods of time. Boundaries, always working on boundaries.
I think the biggest lesson I have learned is that I am simply not built for tons of water. Where water comes into play in my life the wells run deep, but it isn’t where I feel at home. I most want to be up in the sky with the birds or nestled down on the grass with the mother.
For now, I am going to give my water work a rest. I need to bring myself back into balance and what I need most is fire and some air.
December has arrived and pretty snow covers everything here in Wisconsin.
December 14, 2016 – Full Moon in Gemini
December 21, 2016 – Winter Solstice!
December 29, 2016 – New Moon in Sagittarius
Oh yeah and Mercury is going retrograde again! This happens December 19, 2016 – January 8, 2017.
On a personal note, I have started working with Skadi again. I’m also starting to work with Melusine.
My work with Skadi tends to be around dealing with solitude and getting through the winter. I tend to isolate more in the winter and she helps me convert loneliness to solitude. I meditate on her when I am out walking the dog and it really helps me shift my perspective.
Melusine is a whole other kettle of fish. I have decided that I need to work with water more, and since the women in my ancestry believed strongly in the myth of Melusine I plan to see what I can learn from her.
Mostly the month of December belongs to The Holly King. My mantle is covered in Holly Kings! I enjoy his energy very much and I can’t wait to experience the magick of working with him again.
I started my day with a good strong cup of coffee. I put on my oldest Pentacle because it carries so much energy. I journaled to get my thoughts down on paper and to be sure I was clear before I started. Then I had some ritual time and I was very surprised. The energy was very strong and apparently I have been holding some things inside that really needed to be given a voice. Once that was completed then I set about to cleansing my house. It felt good to get the stale energy out and bring in some fresh energy. I take care to get all of the doors and windows. I also cleaned up my altar and myself.
Tomorrow I plan to start my 30 days of devotion and I’m very excited.:) I hope you all have a wonderful new moon!
When I last visited this topic I had just walked away from Christianity. Atheism did not stick. I tried but I couldn’t shake the feeling in my bones that there was more out there. This is also when I first started to use the internet. It was a wonderful way to explore the world. From the church’s point of view, everything was a sin. My childhood was cluttered with all of the things that were forbidden and dire warnings about falling into sin. One topic I had always wanted to explore was astrology. Astrology had been a big bad sin. It was an easy way for the devil to sneak in. With enthusiasm and new-found freedom I dove into the study of the stars. Often in the links section of astrology sites, I would find links to Pagan sites. Pagan sites intrigued me and I could not help myself, curiosity won!
The more I explored Paganism the more it seemed like a natural fit for me. I had to be very careful about this choice. First, what if I was wrong? I could be damned for this, but then wasn’t I damned anyways? The thing about being born into a religious family is that you never have a choice about your beliefs. I finally had a choice and I did not want to blow it. I studied all kinds of Pagans. I narrowed it down to Shamanism, Druidry, and Wicca. I took my time to decide, I took a year. I’m a voracious reader and I gobbled up whatever info I could. In the end, I settled on Wicca. Now that I consider myself a witch and not really a Wiccan, I realize all three of my studied paths are part of my practice.
With typical Gemini flair, I decided to self-dedicate on Samhain. I am not exaggerating when I say that my life has never been the same. Becoming a witch was like being released from a cage and being able to breathe deep for the first time. It felt like home. I felt in the center of where I belonged for the first time in my life. My first ritual was kind of scary. Would lightning come from the sky and strike me dead? Nope, no lightning. Whew! I went to bed that night, not grounded, and dreamt of flying.
The first deity I worked with was Diana the Huntress. It felt good to see myself reflected in my choice of deity. She was like me and I was like her. It felt like she claimed me. She helped me find myself and my voice. I experienced no judgement coming from her. No striving was required. Soon after I discovered Pan. He was a real wonder to me. A god who wasn’t stern and waving damnation in my face! He came to me as gentle presence. For that, I am forever grateful. I needed that so much. Acceptance from a male deity was key to my healing.
I started to read every book I could get my hands on. Magick and intuition came naturally for me. I started to slowly acquire Wiccan tools. I kept a book of shadows and followed the phases of the moon. I was green at all this but I had intense passion. It was a season of enthusiasm and freedom.
Eventually, I found Pagan community. Every group I encountered was ready to tell me what I was doing wrong. They knew the “right” way. Over time, I became very involved in the community. I spent 2 years in a program to become ordained and I took my service to the community very seriously. I worked within my community for over a decade. The more of myself I gave away the less my practice felt fulfilling. During this time, I learned about the craft and people. I’m sorry to say that in the end, I was more damaged by the community than I was helped by it. I burned out. This isn’t a new story, clergy burnout among Pagans is very high. My community was pretty demanding and they liked to be cared for, but that river did not flow both ways. I hit a point where I felt like an empty shell, I had nothing left to give and nothing left to say.
Eventually, I took a big step back. Everything changes and I knew in my bones that I needed change. I took a year to just be. I did not even plant a garden. Rest, deep rest, and healing were the only things I was seeking. I went to yoga and I meditated. I took the time to breathe and I worked on my private practice. When it came time to start to move forward again I knew what i wanted. I wanted my witchcraft and I wanted to be mostly solitary. I needed to be sure I did not make the same mistakes again.
I have not lost my desire to have community, but I think my idea of what community is has transformed. What I seek is a community where everyone brings something to the table. Backstabbers and gossips need not apply. My community may be smaller but I think it is better now. Right now my focus is to get back to my roots. I’m stripping away whatever isn’t needed and unearthing that old passion. It feels amazing to engage with that old magick again. It is going to be a magickal summer and I am ready for it!
Last night was the new moon. I sat alone and wove some new moon mojo. I lit my altar, sang and meditated, and let my wishes go out to the universe. Deep in my heart I smiled.
Artemis Of The Hunt
Kellianna copyright 2012
Artemis of the silver bow
And arrows formed of silver light
Eternal Maiden of the moon
Beloved leader of the hunt
May I run with you now
Through the green forest glade
Grant me the honor to join in the chase
And when the curve of my bow
Is the crescent moon
Artemis guide my arrow true
Lady Of The Wild Things
And forest nymphs running free
Her bird is the majestic crane
The silver fir her sacred tree
Goddess Of The Moon and Hunt
Running towards the morning light
She runs with lion, wolf and bear
Running free with unbound hair
Goddess Of The Raging Seas
Stirs the waves with a silver leash
And with a cry and mighty roar
She hurls them fast upon the shores
Moon Maiden rides the night sky
In a chariot drawn by four white stags
She sets down in a hidden place
And calls her maidens to the chase